Divya Prem's 21st Birthday!!

I can't believe I've been blogging here for more than a year already. I can still remember taking pictures with friends at the cafeteria during Divya's birthday LAST year and we had a cake and we got most of the class to take a group picture for the gal and now she's 21! She's officially the adult in the group now, even though I'm most likely gonna be one after a while as well.

I know I haven't been blogging in a while and no, the blog is not under construction nor am I married. It's just that things have been pretty hectic lately. College has already started for more than two weeks now and we're finally settled with the fees and classes and we're already making plans for our final project, a 20 minute film! Isn't it exciting?

This is Jamie. One of the casts of our film.

And this was taken at MidValley before
we went into the movies.

Alright, I still don't think I've got too much to blog about and I'm not gonna copyright any of the pictures this time because I'm just too lazy to. So just look through the pictures and get a rough idea of what fun I've had since 2008 commenced weeks ago.

Divya's Birthday (18/1/2008)

The grownups.

The cake.

The traiditional face smudging.

The ones enjoying chicken wings.

The ones who sang.

The ones who sang some more.

The ones with presents.

The ones who haven't got wasted.

The one who has. And no, not the one on the left!

And the one who had a blast on the night of her birthday.

Happy Birthday Divya! We love you!!

Out They Come

[Thanks you Sam!!]

My results are as follow:

Consumer Behavior : A
Advertising : A
Media, Culture and Society : A
Law : B+
Creative Strategy : B


All I can say is: YAY!!!

The 5th semester, in my opinion, was the toughest semester I've had so far in KDU and I'm sure it's the toughest of all the other semesters because I've only got one more to go and it's a 7-week semester so I'm not exactly too threatened. Other than Media, Culture and Society, all the other subjects had multiple presentations and assignments thrown in and it was actually quite taxing for those (including yours truly) who simply can't seem to work way in advance and try to get the most of it by doing last minute work with as much effort as they can master.

I actually worried a little for my Consumer Behavior or, maybe, Advertising (I keep getting them mixed up because both are taught by Ms Z) but they both turned out to be A's. I didn't think I would score too well for MCS because I only got 15/20 for my mid-term paper and I only studied for the exams two days before that (or less) and I got an A for that also. Praise the Lord I got 3A's this time. I don't exactly remember all my grades from the previous semester but I definitely remembered the C+ I got for Media Planning and how it shattered my heart. Okay, maybe that was too much. I wasn't too heartbroken. It had maths in it and I was expecting a bad C or D.

Anyway, back to assessing my grades. I got a B+ for Law!! I was about to scream when I saw that one (which was the first I paid attention to when Sam sent me my results). I admit, I wasn't the most hardworking. I wasn't the one who paid most attention and heck, I was hardly the brightest because I swear there were times I just felt like I was going to die especially during those class quizzes and everyone seemed to be handling it better than I did. And I even asked a real smart senior and he got a C+ for Law and now I got a B+! I know, it's just a B+ and some folks might have gotten an A or even a B+ like mine but WHO CARES ABOUT YOU WHEN IT COMES TO MY GRADES?

I feel like Chris Rocker. Or is it Chris Brocker? God, the guy's screwed up in the head a little. Or maybe he's just out of my league when it comes to the acceptance of the different species. OR he would actually turn out to be a nice guy and I'd like him if we were friends in real life. But hey, we're not. But seriously, what I wanted to say was.. I'm happy with my Law result.

I can never truly understand Ms Naomi's standards. But I guess I will never have to anymore because she (most) probably won't be seeing me for my last semester. I got a 13/20 for my PSA designing and also below average comments for my presentation. And then I thought I did okay for the exam. And the result turned out to be quite okay. Just that who wants to settle with an okay when you can definitely settle with something better?

But hey, 3A's and a B+ for Law? It's all good babe.

I'm still stuck in Ipoh until the end of the month and I'm starting to get a little sick of my precious hometown. Before I elaborate much on the sick of hometown part, here are some pictures of my friends who came by to spend some time with lonely little me. Behold.

(from left) Ally, Div, Jo, Del, Denise
after finishing their infamous Ipoh beansprout chicken.

Went to Cameron.
The red one looked absolutely inviting.
And so we went to have a strawberry steamboat.
And sweet corn. And pop-sickles. Yummeh!!

I had another fight (or quarrel) with my mom again this evening after she returned from her partying weekend in Thailand. She said she didn't want me to hang out with gay or lesbian people and she said that it's the family that bears the shame if people outside see the pictures of me and another person. And she claimed that she had given me proper education since young and there was nothing wrong with the family and I should be a normal kid and shouldn't even be close to wanting to be friends with all those "sick and disgusting gay people".

First of all, I'm not sick. I had a body check and I was clean. So to hell with that, literally. Second of all, apparently she STILL does check my messages and pictures from time to time without asking for my permission. Third of all, I don't SHOW those pictures to ANYONE except truly trusted friends and TRUST ME when I tell you that family friends are never ever going to be exposed to ANY of those pictures because they're simply PRIVATE. Not just the pictures we took in bed or anything but also the "normal" ones I took with friends. I don't SHOW my pictures to family members or my mother's friends and I certainly would NOT be uploading any pictures of my partner and me on my blog unless they seem utterly misleading (aka straight).

I'm sick and tired of my parents going through my phone. They would call the person I last called to make sure I wasn't talking to bad people and that freaked out a few people. She would go through each picture on my phone OR she'd sit beside me when I'm playing with my laptop DEMANDING me to show her each and every picture I have taken in recent times and I'm FUCKING serious when I told her that I did NOT enjoy her going through my personal stuff like that. For God's sakes I'm leaving them in a few months time and I'm SURE AS HELL won't be coming back once a week when I'm working and I'm sure I wouldn't be missing the fun at all. They'll still get a part of my salary until they don't need money anymore and I'll be going back for public holidays but seriously? I really just want to be left alone by my parents. They are not just protective, they are condescending and homophobic to the extent that they wouldn't watch Hairspray and hated John Travolta for playing a woman in Hairspray even though he was their favorite actor before they saw that movie.

I mean seriously, since young I've never received a letter that has never been opened before it was given to me. I've told them more than a few times that I have gay friends and the reply they had was "oh you shouldn't be friends with them or you'll get AIDS" or "we didn't send you to KL to become one of those freaks" and "we only let you study there because we want you to be exposed to the city and become a successful person and making friends with gay people is definitely unacceptable". Well guess what? I have met and befriended dozens of gay people and trust me, as bitchy and freaky they are some of them are really successful and respectable. And guess what? I've shook most of their hands and I still am not infected with AIDS or HIV and I am telling you that unless I really go screw around I will most likely NEVER get anything that sort. Secondly, they're not freaks. Full stop.

Kevin, we need you to make sure the family doesn't get looked down upon. What about what I need? Kevin, this is what best for everybody. What about what's best for me? Kevin, you have no idea how we would feel if people even suspect that you like men. What about how I feel?

Let me get this straight, I am NOT ashamed of being who (or what) I am because I don't think I have a problem and if you, whoever you are, has a problem with me I am really sorry for YOUR loss and I really think that you should really go worry about your own business because I don't think I have anything to be ashamed of. If I did, I wouldn't be in a relationship nor would I be even alive because I'm not the kind of person who can take negative criticism too well. I like the way I'm living now because I don't think there's anything, ANYTHING AT ALL, that is unhealthy about it. I'm doing better than average when it comes to college and I'm having a healthy relationship with the person who loves me just as much and probably more than I love him. And I think no matter what YOU think, I will STILL get my happy and successful future and I'm sure when the day comes you'll be very very sorry you have ever doubted my capabilities to make the right decisions and do the right things. I might not be as rich as some people but I sure as hell will be trying to be mentally fulfilled.


Always,
Kevin C.

Mid-December Update

For those who thought I died a tragic death..

Or just thought Hiro WhatsHisName cut off my fingers..The b*tch is back, for now.

I need to start blogging because I want to and not for the others.
And yes, that's what I'm doing, mostly.
The past few weeks have been... romantic, very.
I know, I haven't blogged much. But there wasn't really time.
So here's some pictures to let you know what I've been up to.
If you don't bother, don't check back.
I'm not blogging as usual as I used to anyway, not anytime soon.
But still, have fun reading if you do, bother.
And hi there, I miss you. All of you.
If you think I don't miss you... you know who you are.

Some stuff from college:

I remember bloggin about this actually.
Aisha Sinclaire being in KDU for Canvas.

Arthur's 'surprise' party.

Doesn't Adele's sister look just like her brother's oldest sister?

Paul and Jamie, we had lunch in the *cough*goddamn*cough*
KDU cafeteria before sending him off to the airport.

Wow. You can clearly see their frustration.
And I can clearly spell them out.

Some social stuff:

Lunch and a movie at Pavilion with Ian, Jack and Shaz!
For some strange reasons I don't remember the name
of the shop. It's a Japanese restaurant in Pavilion.
Some shops after J. Co. Donuts. Check 'em out.

Less than twelve bucks for a bowl of rice
with fried fillets, 2 slices of fruits and unlimited
green tea refills. What's not to like?

Well, maybe me. Retarded me.

I also went to have Japanese food, AGAIN.
Seriously, I still don't totally dig them, but now I'm starting
to think that they're fine... Gawd.
That's Kenneth in the middle.

Lunch at Marmalade, Hartamas. By the way, it was also Mei Kim's birthday.

Some stuff from work:

I hosted the Presidential Dinner & Dance for
Fusion Excel International. Got better pay this time.
Which later contributed to the purchase of new clothes.
This is Lovey and me after the event.
I was almost going to die because I actually worked
at the KLCC Pikom PC Fair the day before the event...

And I had to get back to work in the day
AFTER the event, that ended after midnight.
You can definitely tell how happy I was
when it reached the end of the day.

Oh, by the way, Karen Kong was at the event I hosted.
Other then projecting an impressively loud voice from her petite
figure, the singer who found fame singing online and attracting
millions of fans Asia-wide could also conjure flame.

11th December 2007

That's all for this time folks.
Christmas greetings are raging lately and y'all know what it means..
It's time for SHOPPING!!


Who would have known,
Kev C.

Exam Week

Creative Strategy was a good kick start.
But still, good luck to all of us.

Til next Monday,
Kev C.

Know Your Own Sh*t

Or, rather, know your priorities.
That's what I'm failing to do at this point being.
I'm actually not sure where I'm going.
Exams are next week and I've hardly studied much.
The worst thing is I don't even think I care enough.
It's law, for lord's sake.

I've also begun to have self-doubt.
My performance ar recent presentations have been awfully bad.
It was almost as if I didn't want to be there.
She was right. They were all right.
They always are.
And I'm always wrong.
It's not even close to arguable.

I hated myself today.
Watching the words slip through your lips.
Feeling them slice through my shirt, aiming for my heart.
My ego was nothing more than dirt at that exact moment.
And so was I.

And so was I.

OH WELL, since things are over and done with,
I think I should just be thankful it didn't go too bad.
Even though according to them, it was bad enough.
I thought it was fine, or rather good.
But then again, I'm always wrong, right?

Things are starting to go out of hand.
I've never been much of a person who looks down at myself.
But today, I do.

It's like I have my energy and confident sucked out of me.
I feel useless and tired. And I'm getting scared.
But I know I still need to hold on.
I can't give up. Not after all this.
Hate me. Loathe me. I don't give a fuckin' shit.


Life's a beach. Sink, or swim.
Kev C.