Smile, Like You Mean It

You know when you're in love, you do all sorts of ridiculous things.
You have great doubts but greater beliefs.
You wanna believe that something is there.
Something you can't touch, smell, hear or see.
But you can feel it. Or so you keep telling yourself.


Until one day the feeling is taken away from you.
And you ask yourself what happened.
And you try not to think about it for a while.
And you keep yourself busy to not remember the feeling.
The warm feeling. The sweet feeling. The sickening sensation.
But you keep thinking. You keep reminiscing all the bits and pieces.
Until you finally convince yourself that something you held dear, has gone.
And it's too unlikely to come back.


You know when you're in love, you sing all the romantic long songs.
Those that swear by eternities or something as close.
Those you think you'd only sing to the one person you love most.
Even though you're not a particularly good singer.
Until one day the one person you love most is leaving you.
And you ask yourself what went wrong.
And you start listening to post-breakup song.
Ones that can be dreadful. And others that makes it so much better.

You know when you're in love, you're just like any other fool.
And love was surely made for fools like me.


Here's a healing song I played for a hundred times since last night:

Love Myself A Little Bit More -Zhao Wei
(Download or Listen to the song HERE)

When I kissed your face, I quietly sealed the love in that one moment
Time passed by so fast, and things could only be saved as memories
You're not inside my world, and there's nothing I can do to change it
As I stop missing you, I realize we could do so much better

How are the clouds supposed to move when the wind is gone?
Love had me over my head
Since we can't be together, I take your love as a souvenir
I still have a long way to go, and I'll take care of myself
Even if I think of you sometimes, everything is just past memory

I look at how lovers wish upon the shooting stars
I guess I'm just not that imaginative
I try to let go of the promises
That's all I can promise you

(repeat chorus)

Let me start over once again
And I'll love myself a little bit more


Minor updates:

1) I got my Nokia N73! And somehow it came with a 1GB MiniSD card. You have NO idea how incredibly happy I was when I found out that I didn't have to go out and buy another card with a few hundred bucks. The phone takes gorgeous pictures, and I can't wait to show it *cough* off* cough* to you folks. I mean, it's not the most expensive phone but it's simply one of my favorite. Especially when I don't have to pay a cent for it.

2) I'm changing my phone number to avoid some people. I'm still keeping the old number but I'm guessing I'll eventually change it. So now you can reach me at (+6)016 523 9880. And yes, the last four numbers are still there. It's sorta like a tradition. Runs in the family. Save this number.

3) I went out with friends tonight. Haven't seen some of them in a year. I'll be posting pictures (taken by my new phone *screams*) tomorrow if I can make it up early. It's 5.am. in the morning now and I'm not even asleep yet. There's too many thin


Have a gorgeous weekend babes.
Kev C.