Or, rather, know your priorities.
That's what I'm failing to do at this point being.
I'm actually not sure where I'm going.
Exams are next week and I've hardly studied much.
The worst thing is I don't even think I care enough.
It's law, for lord's sake.
I've also begun to have self-doubt.
My performance ar recent presentations have been awfully bad.
It was almost as if I didn't want to be there.
She was right. They were all right.
They always are.
And I'm always wrong.
It's not even close to arguable.
I hated myself today.
Watching the words slip through your lips.
Feeling them slice through my shirt, aiming for my heart.
My ego was nothing more than dirt at that exact moment.
And so was I.
And so was I.
OH WELL, since things are over and done with,
I think I should just be thankful it didn't go too bad.
Even though according to them, it was bad enough.
I thought it was fine, or rather good.
But then again, I'm always wrong, right?
Things are starting to go out of hand.
I've never been much of a person who looks down at myself.
But today, I do.
It's like I have my energy and confident sucked out of me.
I feel useless and tired. And I'm getting scared.
But I know I still need to hold on.
I can't give up. Not after all this.
Hate me. Loathe me. I don't give a fuckin' shit.
Life's a beach. Sink, or swim.
Kev C.
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hey dear, dont be too upset bout the presentation. It wasn't really bad but i agreed that it could be better.
Don't take it personaly, I mean you should understand why were they so mad. You could have felt the same if you were in their position. Plus it's not only you that were feeling drawn out trust me. Even people like div and adele felt the same way.
This semester is a total mess but we are all so close to our goal. Just have to remind ourselves bout that and to never give up
I'm sure everything will be good once we finished our exams and we shall go on trip together alright?
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